Twilight Dreams

Sometimes there seems to be nothing to do, nothing going on and boredom sets in. I was in Phoenix recently and plans were altered due to rain. Rain we seemed to bring with us from Seattle. Usually this happens when I’m a little depressed and I allow myself to sit and stare. Don’t get me wrong, sitting in silence and staring at a wall is good for the soul. It’s simple meditation if you have nothing filling your thoughts. When a day is longer than normal, and you’ve had enough of your walls, try to go somewhere just to see that other people are engaging in activities and there is a world around with buzz and bustle. Maybe you live in a less urban environment, well, nature has its detail and amazement too. It all makes us feel connected somehow. More alone? Maybe? But certainly considering things other than ourselves.

How to be alone

No weekend plans? Me neither. Sometimes it makes me feel lonely. Then I allow my mind to wander to insecure places of doubt and sad memories. This video views being alone in a lovely and nurturing light. I have weekend plans now: to be alone.

Peek-a-boo thong!

Ostomy Secrets – where have you been all my life!?!?

Not only can I relate to this group of resilient woman, I appreciate their dedication to style and security.

Check out the Peek-a-boo thong – I’m going to.

Ostomy Secrets Peek-a-boo Thong

Color: Nude with light pink trim
Avoid panty lines with our Peek-a-Boo Thong! Made of stretchy microfiber and complete with our standard inner pocket, the Peek-a-Boo thong is strong enough to hold up heavy a ostomy bag while leaving your backside bare. Like our other styles, it also has a high waistband to cover your wafer. The peek-a-boo keyhole in the back adds a cute and sexy detail.


Act on your thoughts of others

I love architecture and words. Words and letters and lyrics. I love stories. Telling them, reading them, hearing them. I saw part of a word that made me think of a friend the other day. I remember reading “telling someone you thought of them is far less powerful than taking the steps to send them a note in the mail”.  These days we can connect with one another within seconds with cameras on our phones and the ability to check our email, Twitter and Facebook from anywhere. I’m not sure I buy into the idea of posting my “minute-to-minute” but I was pleased to be able to take this picture and send it to my friend so she knew she was a part of my thoughts and my day.

To make it easy to send a note to a friend or loved one, I keep a drawer full of paper, envelopes and cards for any occasion. It’s OK that they aren’t all originals – it is the thought that counts. My next project is making my own cards from simple photos, but for now, I keep lots of notes on hand and try to think of others often. I helps when I’m having a down day.

What’s important to you?

My studio side kick. I found him tonight pulling my cash out of my wallet and destroying all of my wallet pictures. Kinda makes you take stock of what’s important. And what you shouldn’t leave on the floor. I NEVER have cash on me, but of course the one day I leave my purse on the floor, it’s dog food.

The other thing my puppy found was my stash of fortunes saved from my various noodle feasts (note: I love noodles) He pulled them all out and ate the ones he liked. Here are some he saved:

“You have a wise spirit, an advanced intellect and faith in human nature.”

“You are an artistic person. Let your colors show.”

“You have an important new business development shaping up”

“Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.”

I have no idea how long I’ve had these fortunes, or at what time these messages spoke to me as important. It made me wonder, what’s important to me now…


What’s important to you?

What Not to do list – no longer applies


From the archives of my previous thoughts. This was my “What Not to Do” list when I approached my ostomy surgery. One by one these things are being checked off my New “To Do” List (disclaimer: CHECK WITH YOUR DOCTOR FIRST) And just because I am willing to do them, doesn’t mean you will. I just want to offer up my transition for your reflection:

  • Don’t look at the bag
  • Don’t take off the bandage
  • Don’t wear belts anymore
  • Don’t be naked
  • Don’t enjoy sex
  • Don’t lay on your stomach
  • Don’t wear a bathing suit
  • Don’t go boating
  • Don’t go camping
  • Don’t tell anyone
  • Don’t feel normal anymore